Shana Bearden

Well, to say the least, life is different nowdays. Boring nights, lots of advice from people on how to carry on, the kids are always great, and work is not pleasing as a whole. It is kind of odd to return home every night to a quite house and for the life of me, I can’t remember what I would do after hours from my single days. I have seen more movies in the last 40 days than the remainder of my life put together. Eating out is an expensive and unhealthy thing to do. I have been blessed with friends who have taken me out but I can’t be a burden on them all the time. Hitting the bars or single places does not seem to be anything I am interested in and so it winds up being very very very boring after work. In the old days, I could work till midnight without any problems but today it seems I am pretty well burned out by 6 pm at the latest. Watching TV is getting pretty old and unless it is one of my college teams or the Cowboys I have little interest in football or sports. I am just kind of wore out I guess…. and I still have something to learn about being single. I just am kind of listless these days and I have lost my zing for living right now. Sometimes I see something that makes me really really sad and it hurts. It actually feels like there is a hole in my chest and sometimes, when it gets really bad, I can’t breath or gasp air. I still can’t clean out Shana’s stuff or go through our pictures together. I sort of panic when I think of those days and it seems like such a loss to me that I just can’t get it done. Yet, it is kind of peaceful knowing that I am still surrounded by Shana’s stuff. I found an old voice mail of hers today that made me feel so good just hearing her voice.
I guess I need to move on but it ain’t easy guys.
Jim

Larry Williams will have a memorial service at St. Vincent de Paul Catholic Church at 11:00 AM on Friday 10-16-09. According to his wishes, he will be cremated and there will not be a viewing on Thursday. Wade Funeral Home is handling the service. Father Johnson will officiate. Larry was a long time member of SVDP and was very active in the Men’s Club for many years. He fought his battle with Mesothelioma for over 2 1/2 years and fought it bravely and with honor. The below email was sent out to men’s club members today:

Gentlemen,
For those of you who did not know Larry, he was one of the founding members of the Mens Club organization when there was less than probably 30 members. Larry was with the club when I first joined back in 1988 and served as Vice President.
Larry was a very good man who devoted many hours to this club to the picnic and if I remember correctly was part of the first cooking crew ever for the picnic.
He will be greatly missed by those who have known him for many years. Larry lost his battle with cancer which he fought for many years. Larry will be cremated and there is no
planned visitation.
Larry was a great guy. For those of you who never met him he was something special.
Tim Tucker

I endorse everything that Tim Tucker says about Larry and more. Please say a prayer for the sole of our departed brother tonight and join me at his memorial on Friday.
Jim Bearden